Thursday, February 25, 2016

At least it was a stomach bug

There's nothing like being sick to derail your exercise and diet plans. However, when it's a stomach bug it can at least be helpful in your weight loss goals.

Thankfully it was just a mild upset stomach that made me not want to eat (or workout) for three days, and the upside is, I lost two lbs!

And, I gained a running buddy over the weekend. Running has become something much more enjoyable for me lately. I guess that's what normally happens when you do it enough that you don't suck at it. I can now pretty steadily run about 2.5 miles without trouble. It has been a quiet solitary sort of outlet for me and I usually listen to music or a good book while out on my own.

It never actually occurred to me to find someone to run with, but one of our good friends in the neighborhood has seen my Map My Run posts on facebook and asked if I wanted to go running with her this past weekend. She has a daughter a bit younger than Ali so we planned in for Sunday at nap time when the Daddies could be reasonably trusted with the kids (ha ha) and went out for a run.

What fun that was! We talked and laughed the whole run and while it was a bit slower for me (closer to a 13 min mile than 12) but she had a better run than her previous time.

I'm not sure when we'll be able to do it again, this weekend is full with a birthday party directly in the middle of nap time on Saturday and plans with my mom on Sunday. Next weekend we're having a little birthday party for Lizzy even though her birthday was actually in Dec. This has been the first chance we've had to do something for her. My in laws are coming down and we're having a few of Lizzy's little friends from school over. But, I will definitely be getting together again for an afternoon run sometime soon.

Doing well with the wine battle too, again, stomach bug helps, but it's nice to write the little number on the calendar for another day with no wine.  And today, I'm wearing pre-Ali jeans that are normally just a little too snug for comfort. Yay!

Thursday, February 18, 2016

Cookie issue

Girls Scout cookies have arrived. My only sweet weakness.

I'm still counting those calories and it's really rough to see just how few thin mints it takes to add up to quite a lot of my snack calorie count for the day.

But, no wine Monday or Tuesday and only one glass on Wednesday.

Out of 10 days, 6 with no wine.

The regular sized bottle I opened on Sunday still has wine in it. Not the supersized bottles, the regular size. That's amazing in my house.

I ran on Tuesday and had my Personal Best mile at 12:04. The second mile was 13 minutes but the majority was on a wooded trail that was a bit muddy so I had to slow a bit anyway. Overall very happy about that.

I really want to get up in the morning and do a Daily Burn workout before getting started for the day but it is SO hard to drag myself out of bed at 5 am. Really, really hard.

I also want to do better at prepping things for the week. Dinners made and ready to go, salads prepped, snacks done, etc.

I need a good plan.

Monday, February 15, 2016


The thing is, I know what I need to do to get the results I want, I'm just not usually willing to do it.

What I need to do is lay off the wine. It's a crutch that is 100% mental and I know it is but I just hadn't been willing to let go of it.

It's embarrassing to admit to how much I normally drink, and I'm not quite ready for that, but let's just leave it at: I have a drink every day.

The weekend before last, I had enough. I was tired of waking up feeling like crap. Before church I dumped out two mostly full bottles of wine so there was nothing in the house. And it stayed that way for most of the week.

I have to say I have not been 100% faithful to the 'no wine' mantra, but out of the last 9 days, I have not had a drink on 5 of them. That's pretty huge for me. And, on the days where I did have wine, I had at most 2 glasses and on one day, I had half a glass, that's it. Again, huge for me.

I also recently signed up with Daily Burn, which is AWESOME! I love the different workouts every day and they have workouts as short as 15 minutes, which is frequently all I have.

In 9 days I have lost 2 lbs, 'wine weight' which I knew was there.

My body feels better.

My brain feels better.

I have marked on the calendar every day that I don't drink and it is very satisfying to put another mark on the page.

Bolstered by success and by not being hungover at Church this week, I am excited to dive into another good week of fun workouts and no drinking.

Will update!

Wednesday, February 3, 2016

Pity party is over, but wait til you hear the rest

So Monday and Tuesday were both good days and I'm feeling better. Yesterday I went for a run and for the first time since before I was pregnant with Ali, I ran the full two mile loop around our lake and felt great.

Last weekend was kind of crappy all the way around. I already mentioned the failed party but that was seriously just the icing on the cake. Here's what happened last weekend.

The oven died. It had been on the way out for a while but finally died Thursday night when my husband took a 'kill it or cure it' approach. He killed it. Waiting on parts now. $500.

The steam mop died. We have tile floors over about 700 sf of our downstairs and it's a dark colored wood look tile. In theory, I love them. In reality, they show every dirty footprint, slobber mark (dog), and dusty, dirty spec that falls. I sweep several times a week and mop every Friday afternoon. Mop died. $150.

Lacking an oven, I pulled out the crockpot to cook some chicken for dinner. Didn't have an actual crockpot meal planned, just tossed in some chicken and marinade and it all went well. After it was done, just for the sake of curiosity, I put in some frozen biscuits that I had initially planned to have with dinner...but no oven. They did cook. It took about an hour and a half at which point dinner was way over and my husband was busy cleaning the kitchen. He took the biscuits out of the pot, and put it immediately int o the sink to spray out with water. Cold water. On a hot crockpot. Crack! $80

On Saturday Lizzy woke up with a fever and telling me her ears hurt. I waited until Sunday to make sure the fever stuck, which it did, so we spent Sunday morning at Urgent Care to get her double ear infection diagnosis. $169

Saturday and Sunday were also bad days for my poor Big M. He is not doing well and has been struggling with extreme arthritis in his back end. He's been failing since late last summer and at this point the vet is amazed he's still moving, his x-rays are that bad. My husband took him out for a very short walk on Saturday and had to carry him back. 70 lbs of dog. Big M never recovered from it that day and on Sunday didn't move from his bed for most of the day even when we had (2) people over for the party. He's got me so stressed out that we're going to have to make a quality of life decision in the next couple months. It sucks.

So, Sunday afternoon. After everything. My mom called to check on Lizzy and I just started to cry at her. It was so overwhelming. It still is, but after a couple of nights of good sleep, healthy eating and a good run it's easier to deal with.

The pity party is over. Now to deal with all those broken pieces of my house and figuring out what I need to replace first.

Monday, February 1, 2016

Another failed party

I don't know why I try. I really don't. I also don't know why my parties fail. But they do. All of them. Every time. Whether it's for work, for a charity organization, to support a friends new business, or just a celebration. No one comes to my parties.

I have a friend who recently became a consultant for Rodan and Fields and I bought a line from her the end of last year to be supportive, and I really like it. I think it's a good product. So I offered to host a party for her.

Silly me. I should have known better.

I invited 30 women. Some friends, some coworkers, some of the mom's I know from the girls' school. 30 people total.

I had 6 respond that they would attend.

I had two cancel.

I had one person show up.


I spent the rest of the day in tears. I would never do that to someone. I would never RSVP to a party and just not show up. No email, no call. Nothing.

I didn't sleep well. I feel like shit today and I'm just sad. My heart is just sad. I don't understand. I have good friends. When they throw parties their houses are packed with people. When I throw parties...crickets.

The last party I threw was four years ago. Ali's first birthday. We invited all our friends, planned a big party and no one came. It hurt me so badly that it took four years before I tried again.

I just don't understand.