Friday, May 31, 2013

10 Weeks.

Yesterday was not a good day. Apparently the issues with Baby A and I were not her fault and I was the one who woke up on the wrong side of the bed. Mama T had no trouble with her all day, she was happy, playful and generally a good girl, for which I am very glad. I managed to get into a real doozie of an argument via email with my husband yesterday and basically spent the whole day seething about everything. So, I had a massive bowl of Macaroni and Cheese for dinner followed by a massive bowl of ice cream. Baby A got meatloaf, mac n cheese and spinach (had to throw something nutritional in there) which she LOVES and says 'mmmm' or 'wow' after every bite, just so I could have a relatively pleasant and non-screaming evening.

This morning has been great so far. Baby A was happy and calm this morning. We got out of the house on time for I think the first time in about a month, maybe more. It was pretty shocking to walk into the office at 8:00 instead of 8:20 or later. Traffic wasn't bad. I got to have my coffee this morning. All in all, a pretty good  day so far. And, it's Friday, so that automatically makes it even better.

So, stats:

10 weeks
129.8 lbs - still just about a lb gained, we can probably round up to 2 though.
Morning sickness seems to have passed however, prunes are currently my new best friend. I travel with a container of them and have a few every couple of hours.
Back pain, starting to kick in a little more. I'm hoping that now that bending over doesn't make me want to vomit, I can start exercising a little more and stretching more. I really think that will help if I can stay loose.
Very tired, and apparently emotional. Yay pregnancy hormones!


Thursday, May 30, 2013

Quitting time??

It's 9:27 am. I'm pretty sure it's time to go back to bed and just stay there.

Baby A and I had a miserable morning. I think we both woke up on the wrong side of the bed and she just kept pitching fits about everything. She refused to eat her breakfast. Our bathtub is currently out of commission due to remodeling (still) so I brought her into the shower with me this morning. It's usually a fun experience but she just screamed about everything. Screamed about getting dressed. Screamed about getting her hair pulled back. Scream, scream, scream. I dropped her off with Mama T and ran for it. My patience level was low to begin with but I am so ready for this day to be over. I'm praying I can make it through without swearing at someone who does or doesn't deserve it.


Wednesday, May 29, 2013

Mmmmm, Coffee, Coffee

As we approach week 10 it seems like my stomach issues are settling down, which I truly appreciate. Last Saturday morning was a little rough but since Sunday I haven't had too much trouble and this morning, I was able to have a cup of coffee while getting ready. I haven't been able to do that for a solid month! Not only was I able to have a cup of coffee at the house (a whole cup by the way, not a half, or less which is all I had been drinking previously), but when I got to the office, I had another one!! It was so nice to sit down with a hot cup of freshly brewed coffee and not want to vomit.

We had a wonderful Memorial Day Weekend with Baby A. We stayed home this year which is pretty unusual. Pretty much any three day weekend turns into a trip to the in-laws cabin in TN for quality time with them and their boat, but there was just too much to do at home and both my husband and I had long lists of unfinished projects that we wanted to cross off. Thankfully we had beautiful weather, and we were able to get everything done including taking Baby A to the pool twice and out for long walks several times. We stayed busy and as much as possible I would plan projects that Baby A could 'help' with while she was awake, and do the harder things during her afternoon nap. She and I washed the deck furniture, scrubbed the front steps, peeled and steamed vegetables for the week and bought new toy bins for several rooms in the house.

I don't know about other families, but we somehow end up with toys in all rooms. So, I have a small bin in most of them to contain the clutter. I may have to put a halt on the stuffed toy purchases by family members though. It's a little ridiculous. Especially since they all have to buy the most gigantic stuffed animals they can possibly find. We have a massive cat, monkey and bunny taking up a stupid amount of space in her room right now. I have no idea what to do about it.

Oh well, it's just going to get worse when #2 gets here.

Friday, May 24, 2013

9 weeks

I think we're in the raspberry size range this week but I don't remember. I'll have to check my book when I get home. I had a follow up sonogram yesterday, mostly just to make me feel better because we lost the last pregnancy at 9 weeks. Everything was great. Strong heartbeat, lots of growth since the first sonogram, right on track for our end of December due date. It was very comforting to have that check up and, even though I have been sick regularly, know that everything is developing the way it should.

The next sonogram won't be until 20 weeks to determine gender and make sure all the organs and body parts are where they're supposed to be. It kind of stinks that we have to wait that long, but, again, it's one of those things where you need to be thankful for the healthy pregnancy that doesn't require extra check ups and things like that.

I'm still having a lot of nausea and morning sickness and my back has really started talking to me, especially when I carry Baby A. I think we're going to really have to start moving away from that and she is not going to appreciate it. She thinks my belly is funny though, especially my belly button. I'm pretty sure I've mentioned my herniated belly button before, well, it's taking on some new qualities now that I'm pregnant again and Baby A loves to poke it.

Baby A is growing so fast. Every once in a while Mama T has to remind me that she's really not a baby anymore and that she can do a lot more than I give her credit for. So, now, Baby A is climbing in and out of her car seat all by herself. I still buckle and unbuckle her but she does the rest all by herself. She's still not 100% confident in it and frequently gets distracted by the pretty baby in the mirror (the one on the back of the seat so I can see her in my rear view mirror). She has started eating regular dinners with my husband and I, whatever is cooked for dinner that night, instead of separately prepared meals and I've turned over more of the eating portion to her control. Mornings are harder to do that with because we have to get out the door by a certain time and she's a very distracted eater. She's a good eater, but slow and if I let her she'd be there for 30 or 45 minutes with her yogurt and fruit.

I haven't gained anymore weight yet and am actually fluctuating between 129 and 130, so that's not terrible considering 3-5 lbs are expected in the first trimester.

9 weeks
130 lbs (2 lbs gain)
Nausea, backache, very tired
Already into maternity clothes to hide my poochy belly.

Tuesday, May 21, 2013

Summer Play Dates

Every now and then I think of a friend I used to have. I realize that statement sounds rather ominous and no, nothing serious happened to her. She just became a mom. And lost herself. It's probably one of the things that drives me the most batty. Parents who get so lost in their child that they can't maintain their own lives and friendships. She lived about a mile and half from me, a three minute drive and she never, ever came to see me when I had Baby A. I would call and try to set up visits and she wouldn't answer, and wouldn't return phone calls and finally when I did get something scheduled, I was taking my 8 week old baby to her house because it was inconvenient for her to leave with her 2 and a half year old son. As I was walking out the door to  make the 3 minute drive, she called to cancel and said should call her next week and we'll try to plan something else.

Bite me.

So we went 6 months without talking because I refused to pick up the phone and call her.

I had two belly bands that I borrowed from her during my pregnancy and wanted to return them, but knew she was never going to call me on her own, so I mailed them. She lives three minutes from me, I put those suckers in a manila envelope and mailed them. She called me then.

She had no idea why I was so upset. She then invited me to her sons 3rd birthday party, which was the following week. On a Thursday. At noon. She knows I work. I haven't been invited to parties one or two, but she thought it was ok to throw an invite at me over the phone after realizing I'm upset that she's been such a shitty friend.

I told her that was crap and that clearly I couldn't make it, I work during the day.

We haven't spoken since and I just realized that it's been a full year. I frequently miss her. Before she was a mom she was an awesome friend. She went shoe shopping with me to find the perfect fabulous heels for my wedding.

Ever since she lost her mind when she had her son, I was adamant that when I became a mom I would not do the same thing to my friends. Mostly I think we've done a good job. We have a couple sets of friends that we see on a fairly regular basis. W&A are easy because they're in the same neighborhood and less than a mile from our house. Two of our other friends are a little harder because they work and live downtown. I do stay in touch with them, but it's harder to schedule visits and play dates.

Well, this summer I have taken the initiative to set up some fun trips for all of us and find some things to do around Atlanta. My mommy partners in crime and I will be heading to the Atlanta Zoo the first Friday in June for the morning to let our rompers romp til they drop! I am super excited, partly just to go to the zoo because I love it, and partly because I really want to put as much effort into my friendships as I do the other facets of my life.

Friday, May 17, 2013


I'm very glad that I found my magic bagels and they have made my mornings so much easier. I"m still ridiculously late to work, but that's mostly because I think I fall asleep in the shower. Or maybe while drying my hair. It might also have something to do with the two or three books I sat on the floor and read to Baby A this morning. Whatever the cause, I just don't have the energy to worry about it. So, I'm late, again. I get my work done, no one's chasing me for things that I've missed or forgotten (yet). I'm just not going to stress about it.

The scale has started going up, which I"m a little concerned about. I know it's from all the carbs I've been eating. I don't think I've had a vegetable all week. Subway BLT's are a current staple for lunch since I can't eat lunch meat, my egg salad options makes my stomach roll and even bananas aren't really looking appetizing to me right now. Yesterday I did make a grilled cheese sandwich at the office for lunch that that went well. Dinners are rough. While I was pregnant with Baby A, I had a terrible issue with meat. I could not stand chicken or pork. Just the smell of either one sent me running for the nearest bathroom. We lived on beef for about four months. My poor husband, he was such a good sport. Every once in a while I'd put a few chicken breasts in the oven and then leave and tell him he was on his own from there. I was really hoping to avoid that issue the second time around but it's already beginning. I made pork chops a few nights ago and actually had to run to the trash can and spit out the bite I had just take because it was absolutely NOT going down. So, hotdogs and mac n cheese. Lovely. At least I"m mostly avoiding the fast food addiction. I was quite sure Baby A was going to come out looking like a Big Mac, that was the only thing I wanted during my first trimester with her. I have had a few cheese burgers, but mostly it's the fries that I want right now, so I'd like to tell myself that's better.

My stomach is starting to pooch out and my clothes aren't fitting. I pulled out a pair of maternity capris and shorts since I didn't have much summer stuff that fit to begin with and there's just no point in buying anything new right now that's not maternity.

Eight Weeks
130.2 lbs (2 lbs gained so far)
Nausea, Fatigue, Some backaches and a few headaches.

Not too bad.

Thursday, May 16, 2013

BB's Bagels

I have always been a fan of bagels. Smothered in butter or cream cheese, they were a direct factor in my college weight gain, well, that and beer of course. These days I rarely indulge but when I do, I stop at BB's Bagels which happens to right outside my office (yes, I pass this EVERY SINGLE DAY and normally keep driving). They happen to be in Georgia, but these boys are New Yorker's. BB's stands for Bronx Bagels and rumor is they truck the water down from NY to make the bagels because the water in GA doesn't bake right. I don't care if they bring it in from the moon, these bagels are ridiculously good. They're about the size of your head and if you get there early, they are hot and toasty, just out of the oven, baked fresh every morning.

I love them.

Now, I love them even more.

Every morning for the last two weeks I've spent about 10 minutes heaving my guts out. I've had crackers, I've had oatmeal, I've had cheerios, I've had cereal bars, I've had yogurt, I've had milk, I've gone without eating because the idea of putting something into my stomach only to have it come right back out just made me ill to think about. It didn't matter, I'd still end up sick. Again, I hate complaining because all this means it's a healthy pregnancy and there's a baby growing in there, which I am very grateful for. It still sucks throwing up every morning.

The last two mornings, after making it out of the house 15 minutes late, I stopped at BB's and got a wonderfully tasty cinnamon raisin bagel and after inhaling that, my stomach felt much better. So, I got half a dozen and brought them home. This morning when I got up to walk the dogs, I took half a bagel with me and munched on that during the walk. No vomiting! I ate the other half in the car on the way to work and my stomach is feeling pretty good. Not great, and I"m going to have to watch what i eat the rest of the day too, like I have been, but I was able to drink my coffee this morning and that makes me a very happy mama!

Monday, May 13, 2013

7 weeks and 3 days

I meant to post on Friday about my sonogram last week, but wouldn't you know, I actually had a busy day at work, so, here we are.

Everything went really well. Other than the sonogram lady being an hour behind, it went really well. I was so nervous and made sure to tell the lady what I went through last year so that the first thing she did when the image came up was say 'yes there's a heartbeat, everything is good'. Thank you! Thank you!

This week the baby is the size of a blueberry (all the produce references make my husband crazy, but I think it's fun) and we have lots of brain development going on right now, so, I had to forgo the beer when we went to lunch with a couple friends on Saturday at a new Irish Pub nearby. The kids were with us though so it wasn't all that odd that I didn't drink.

Hopefully my husband will relent on the 'don't tell' rule soon. Our parents know, and I told Mama T but my office doesn't know yet and there's no way I'm going to be able to keep it a secrect much longer. I look about as fabulous as I feel. And this morning, I really, really felt like crap. Terrible morning sickness, it's pretty much a constant, persistant nausea.

So much fun.

But, I am so glad for it. Everytime I feel sick, I just remind myself that these are signs of a healthy pregnancy.

32 weeks and 4 days to go!

Thursday, May 9, 2013

Big Day

Today is my first sonogram. I'm excited and terrified all at once. I should be at about 8 weeks right now, but I always estimate myself to be further along that I end up being once they're able to take accurate measurements. So, maybe 7 weeks? 6 and a half? We'll see. Either way, I'm still early and last time we lost the baby at 9 weeks. So there's still a lot of room for something to go wrong. I'm trying to stay realistic and optimistic at the same time, it's a little challenging.

My husband isn't able to come with me today because it's a 2:00 appointment and he works downtown while the Dr's office, and my office, are 45 minutes north of his. I'm very nervous to go in by myself and I wish he could have come too, or at least my mom. Someone to be with me.

I really do feel like everything is going to be fine though. Every time my stomach rolls and I fight the urge to vomit, I'm reassured that it's a normal, healthy pregnancy. It will be nice to have that visual confirmation of the heartbeat today though.

Monday, May 6, 2013

Three crazy weeks

I think it's been over three weeks since I posted anything. It has been a crazy, hectic, surreal three weeks.

First. I completely failed at my fitness goals to workout daily and do all that crap. I did buy new running shoes though, so that should count for something.

Second. Massive project at work that resulted in two weeks of stress, long days and barely seeing my husband or Baby A at all last week.

Third. I'm pregnant. !!!!!




I actually found out two weeks ago and have been so run over at work that I've only just scheduled my first appointment for tomorrow. So, hopefully that goes well. I expect to be around 7 or 8 weeks.

I'm very confident that this is going to be a healthy pregnancy. I am confident because this time around, I feel pregnant. Very pregnant. My boobs hurt, a lot, my tummy is already swelling, and I spent a good portion of this morning throwing up while Baby A stood in the doorway to the bathroom saying 'uh oh'. Last year I didn't have any symptoms. I never felt pregnant. Right now, I'm so very, very tired all I want to do is curl up and sleep.

So, here it is. I"m going to count my starting weight at 126 since I'm fairly sure the 2 lbs I've gained recently can be blamed on pregnancy. Stay posted for growing belly pics and nausea updates.