39 Days Left

Yes, I am counting down days now.

I am technically 34 weeks and three days along.

It's a tough day today. I had a mostly good weekend but yesterday morning I pushed it too far. I woke up feeling really good. Baby A was having a great morning and we dusted and cleaned, and did laundry and made cookies together.  The whole weekend was rainy and cold and it's hard to be stuck inside with a toddler for that long. Especially Baby A who LOVES to be outside. She is an outdoor kinda girl, which is great, unless it's 50 degrees and raining.

But apparently I just pushed a little too hard and by 11:30 I hit a wall. Hard.

I still haven't managed to get the prescription brand support hose for the varicose veins but have three pairs of OTC ones. They're ok. They help, probably not as much as the prescription ones would but it's just not convenient for me to get over to the only place I found that sells them and get them ordered. This is some seriously not fun stuff though. I really don't think I have the words for the level of discomfort that I'm in due to them. My entire left leg looks like it's been in a car wreck. The veins are so stressed, all of them, that they're all blue and purple and raised, from the very top of my thigh all down to my ankle.

We had an appointment for Big M in the afternoon and I did need to go to that with my husband but once we got home, I sat. Pretty much the rest of the day and I'm still really not feeling well today.

I have a checkup tomorrow and will mention it but I don't know how much they can do for me, other than bug me to go get the prescription hose. Honestly I'm afraid to show them my leg. I'm afraid they'll either freak out about it, or tell me it's not that bad. I don't know which would be worse. At least if they freak out it will justify how badly I feel. If they say 'yeah, that's what it looks like', that means this is normal and could potentially be worse, which is by itself scary.

Apparently my parents and in laws are taking bets on how early I go into labor. No one thinks I'll make it to the 27th.  My FIL mentioned Dec 10th, which is just not funny. While I'm definitely tired of being pregnant, I'm not ready for the alternative quite yet. I did a lot of baby organizing yesterday and have done a lot of work on the new bedding, but I maintain that this little girl needs to wait until at least Dec 23rd. I may be working from home those last few weeks and doing what I can on 15 minutes of allowed walking during the day, but this baby will cook as long as possible.