I did talk to my husband on Tuesday to let him know how I was feeling and that I needed some help. He has been really great this week.
I also went to the gym this week. TWICE! I just got on the treadmill and walked but it was so nice to get out and do something, anything!
My appetite the last few weeks has really been out of control. I feel like I"m always hungry and I never used to have that trouble. I used to keep my diet around 1100-1200 calories easily. Right now I'm at 1300 steadily but that's not where I need to be to continue losing weight.
I managed to drop the pound that I gained on vacation, but honestly I'm pretty happy with only having gained a single pound while we were out for a week. I didn't snack much and our diet didn't change too drastically, but boy did we drink a lot more than normal! That's definitely my splurge. I can pass on just about any dessert, but open a bottle of wine and I will not turn my glass away.
The feelings of panic and being overwhelmed have settled down a bit. My husband moved his workouts to the mornings this week and has been in the house each evening with me and the girls. Just having him in the house to intercept some of Ali's constant questions and games was helpful.
I bought a new pair of jeans and they fit. And they look good. That's helpful too. They're not the size I want them to be, but 5 months postpartum, to be able to buy a pair of jeans and have them button comfortably around my still shrinking belly, I"m ok with that.
I need to maintain my sanity. I need to get a little more control.
My mom is taking Ali this weekend and I hope to have some quiet time to get some things done that have been sitting around waiting for me to have time to do them. I have half a dozen or more unfinished projects sitting around the house, not to mention the regular things that I haven't been getting to lately.
One step at a time.